When does it end?

When I was growing up, my father taught me some invaluable lessons that he hoped I can learn through him instead of on my own. I assume because he wanted to guide and protect me from some of the hurts of the world, as every parent should strive to do for their children. He always told me life would be tough... I always knew it was not going to be easy, but I never knew how tough life would present it self to me. I can candidly say that this is one of the most adverse times I have ever been through on a personal level. I know that God will prevail and I will rise to overcome these adversities just as I have in the past with him carrying me...however, this is the darkest hour I have experienced...and my heart is ever so heavy. I miss friends, support, family, anything that reminds me of a better time in my life. All of my negative habits come to haunt me in times such as this which unfortunately spiral me into a more self defeating attitude. I have a horrible habit of comparing myself to others, and everyone seems to be doing better than me. I have worked so hard to get where I need to get and be the person I need to be, only to wind up back where I started. Where are you God? I need you now, I need to be carried to my next breath, to my next step. I push those who love me away, because I dont want to burden them with my problems, and in the end, does anyone really care about anyone but themselves? I am angry and bitter with you God. Is this truly the life you intended for me to live? Why when we seek you and your will for our lives is it so challenging to find the right choices to make and embrace to send us down the paths you intend for our lives to begin with? I am tired, I am lonely, I am defeated, I am so very sorry for the wrongs I have committed. At the end of the day, my heart is good and pure, and I only wish to serve you. But how can I do this when I feel so very far away? My life is consumed with things to keep me afloat on every aspect. I know I fail to focus on you at times, I need help.....I need help from you to help me focus on you. Fill my life up with people I can help, with positive influences that can help me. M darkest hour is upon me waiting to crush me, and I am afraid...I am afraid the things of this world are consuming me beyond a point of no return. I cannot survive life like this. I feel these words are bursting out of me, everyday I get up and feel more defeated than the day before, everyday I cry out to you in hopes that I will feel something different than hurt, sorrow, pain, negativity, despair, worry, stress, and everything negative. Nothing brings me happiness. Nothing, brings me Joy. I focus my energies on people that is wasted, in my most darkest hour why? Is it because I cant find people that can create value for me? What do I do God? Yet again, I feel abandaned by you, and cry out to you with no answer. My heart is so strong and I know this, but I cannot survive for much longer without you, you must know this. You are my guide. I dont bring joy to anyones life, and I am not experiencing joy in my own...for the first time, I do not want this life. I need refreshed, revived, renewed, and sought out...

When a Man walks into a room....

When a man walks into a room he brings his whole life with him. All of his challenges, adversities, successes and relationships. As individuals we strive to always want more in every role that we play in life, whether it be a better car, a larger home, better relationships with those we love, and the list goes on and on...just possibly the key to getting these things is striving not to strive...

For so long I have struggled with being content with the things around me, so I intentionally slow down and focus and give things more time. As of late, I feel as if my life has one way and that is forward. Why waste time on things you know are not going to work out? Relationships, jobs, an more...The older I get I search for the perfect woman harder and harder. The harder I try the more things seem to get out of control. However with this being said, these types of situations bring new and exciting opportuntities into my personal life. My whole life I have been a good boy, doing all of the right things for all of the right reasons. Even though I am still doing those things, is there a balance that I could find? If life continues down this path my previous 30 years of age have gone so quickly it is getting difficult to remember where I came from. I am always living for the future therefore never in present creating a new past. It is very ironic with my personality. I strive and strive, and strive to do my best and get ahead in every aspect of my life, but somehow I for get to live it? I am unhappy, I am sad, my heart hurts, and i miss my past....What does this mean? Sometimes I cry at night cause I am lonely, or not where I want to be. Does everyone feel this way, if they do, we are all missing something.

I am a Christian man, no matter how far I stray from God, or feel far from him, I know he is with me, guiding me and supporting me. I know my life would be so much better with him in it, and he is only the thing that allows me to focus on the present and the tasks at hand than anything else. This is why I struggle, I believe this is why the majority of the people you meet feel like they havent reached their potential. This why I need to focus on GOD. Private victories than public victories...

Thoughts

I have started to read a new book it is called "The One Minute Closer", by James Pickens. As you can imagine what the book is about "Master Closers & Business", however it is talks about so much more than that. Here are a few thoughts from the author, he speaks about two major problems with selling strategies, 1.) is not holding onto your "can do" attitude, and the other is pre-judging people and not realizing we might have something to learn from that individual if we only listened. He quotes "Man judges you by your actions, but God judges you by your intentions." POWERFUL! Here is a couple of saying I believe everyone should know: "In life, good judgement usually comes from past experiences. Unfortunately, most past experiences come from bad judgement."  "I would rather dream, try, and risk all than just survive and regret."  "I fight to believe in myself, even when others have given up on me."  "People dont make themselves great, what makes people great is the cause they believe in."  "When there is no real enemy within me, then any enemy that is found outside will not ever hurt me."

I hope these words of encouragement bring a smile to some faces and confidence to others, I hope you are all doing very well. Please let me know if I can help any of you in any way! I might be up to Indiana for a trip, my tenants have both lost there positions and this is the second time they are late!

Remember to smile, keep a positive attitude, focus, believe in yourself, and trust God!

Jared

Finally

Hey guys I hope everyone had a great time over the holidays, I spent some time with the family, friends, and the dog! I have been doing well here, I am currently looking for a part time job here in Asheville, until we get this company off of the ground. We have our first home show in March, so I am really excited about that! I am sure you guys are wondering what exactly is rainwater harvesting? The short sweet and simple of it is, you collect rainwater during a rainfall through means of a collection point (roof) and the conveyence system (gutters), filter it through carbon filter,s UV lights, and vortext filters, and then store it into a above ground or below ground cistern. It is a really neat concept, we have come along way since rain barrels! 

I visited a new church this past Sunday, I am trying to find one like FCC! The one I visited was a non-denominational church (interesting) with co-pastors a man and his wife? What do you guys think about that? I know it is not biblical, my what are your thoughts and concerns? I will stop talking now!

This a great way to keep up with each other, this site should be pretty easy to manage and navigate, I think it would be easier if you guys "followed" this blog right here on the right>>> All you have to do is post your comment and add your own story or questions! Let me know if this is working!